Samuel Shimon: Green Apples
Berlin, February 2010
While I was checking in at the Bleibtreu Hotel on my arrival in Berlin, the receptionist noticed that I kept staring at a large bowl filled with green apples that was on the reception desk. She took an apple from the bowl and offered it to me. After some hesitation I took the apple and put it at once in my pocket. I cannot even recall if I thanked her. As I was riding the elevator to my room, I kept thinking to myself: “I have a green apple in my pocket.” The next morning, I could not believe it when I saw a photograph of me placed right next to the bowl of apples. Katja, the receptionist, told me that it was a tradition in the hotel to place the photograph of the writer taking part in the “Writer in the Hotel” programme on the counter in an effort to help promote them (see photo). Thus, every day and for four weeks I was greeting the receptionist and smiling at those green apples, the size of tennis balls.
Iraq, 1964
That evening as I left the cinema sadness was gnawing at my little heart and my eyes were brimming with tears. I turned into a dark and narrow alleyway and began kicking with my gym shoes at every stone and bit of dirt in my path, crying out in rage: “How can the hero die? How can the hero die?”
It didn’t occur to me that it would be my mother who would make me forget the “hero’s death”.
As soon as I got home she pounced and began attacking me mercilessly, leaving teeth marks on my arms and shoulders and screaming out: “Son of a bitch, are you a son of the movies or my son?” Kiryakos, who was drinking tea and toying with an apple, commented: “He was born to be a filmmaker.”
I was sitting on the dirt floor spitting into the palms of my hands and wiping them over the marks my mother’s teeth had left on my body, then blowing on them in an attempt to calm the burning caused by the hot weather and the sweat running from my limbs. The whole time I don’t think I once took my eyes off Kiryakos’s apple, green and the size of a tennis ball; I was longing to eat it, and had I done so it might have made me forget my pains.
That night, I put my hands to my chest and said humbly: “O Lord. O Christ. I swear that all I want to be is a filmmaker.” Before closing my eyes I realized I’d forgotten something so I added: “O Lord. O Christ. I swear I’ll never eat green apples.”
Paris suburb, 1990
A hand touched my left shoulder and I turned to see a man in his seventies, his white hair combed back, smiling, a cigarette between his wine-stained lips. I realized he was asking me to light it for him. We exchanged smiles. He looked like my father, I wanted to talk to him to see if he could speak. I was sitting on the top deck of the train, smoking and looking at the forest we were passing through. The hand touched me again on the same shoulder and I turned again to see the man, his hand stretched out holding an apple that was green and as large as a tennis ball. He gestured with his head for me to take it. I took the apple and the man smiled and left the compartment.
And when the train stopped at the next station I glanced through the window. I saw a white bird lying dead at the foot of a tree. I kept looking at it for a while, and started rolling the apple around in my hands until the train moved off. A few moments later I saw a white bird flying, little by little approaching my window as if it wanted to touch it. Then it flew away.
Samuel Shimon sent us this blog entry after one of his travels following his stay at the Bleibtreu in February 2010.




